Inside the Bubble (or, Just a Short Rant)

I was really a fan of that James Blunt song “You’re Beautiful” before I paid attention to the lyrics. Because before I listened to the lyrics, I thought it was about a guy who saw a girl on a train and didn’t have the guts to introduce himself and then just kept thinking about her and how beautiful she was and how he should have gotten her digits. And that’s sad, and usually I hate things about sad stuff and I change the radio whenever a slow song comes on and I won’t watch movies that don’t have happy endings. But I liked the song anyway because although it was sad, I liked to think that maybe one day he’d actually bump into her on the street or in the bookstore and realize it was her and since he didn’t ask her for her number before, and it bothered him enough to write a song about it, surely he would ask for it this next time!

But then I actually paid attention to the lyrics, and that’s not what it’s about. I mean, it’s sort of about that, but mostly it’s about how he saw her on a train, but she was with her boyfriend, and they shared a look, and although he realizes he will never be with her, it doesn’t bother him (Oh yeah, right, you wrote a song about it dude. It bothers you.) because they “shared a moment that will last ‘til the end.” And that just makes me angry because she has a boyfriend and now James believes she will just be secretly thinking about him forever. What if I was on a train and Boyfriend (um, you know, the one I don’t have) “shared a moment” with some chick, and while I was thinking he was in love with me, he was actually pining for TrainWhore? I find the whole thing quite sipid.

And it’s possible that I am taking this song too personally. But it’s also probably true that I take every movie and every song too personally, which is why I need to avoid All Things (with even a tidbit of) Melancholy. Because if I don’t, I’ll just be angry at nonexistent people like TrainWhore all the time. Which is why I continue to live in a happiness bubble.